lifes like this.

I dont know how to start this post. Sigh. A total let down though. Os was bad. I did pretty bad. I hate to be blamed at. Cmon, im a human too. Who doesnt? The fact that his mom is still pissed with me, idk if its true. Even if its so, maybe bcoz Im eligible fr poly but his not. Or maybe bcoz of some other stuffs. Idk but hell yeah. I cant accept that. Aunty has been good to me though, just because I ruined her son's future, what? Allah yang mengatur ini semua. Not that I choose my life to be this way, not that I choose to feel this way, nor that I marked my cambridge papers, what makes people think that I did well, cmon, even me, im not satisfied with mine either. Maybe, if I were single yesteryear, I couldve done better. Idk. Ahhh, I cant just fuck my life, I dont even want my life to be fucked. Sigh, sigh, I had enough, I wanted a break up along time ago, one of the reason because so that you could focus on your Os but you insisted. You chose this way. You wanted to spend your time with me like its the end of the world. You just wanted to spend every single bit with me. Its you. And now im to be blamed? This is one of the reason why I hate to be in a relationship, furthermore, im not even committed to it. Youve not texted me the whole day, what dyou expect me to feel? To feel dumped? Hah, I bet youd hope that I felt the same way as you. Oh yeah, maybe I did but a lil. Damn, I wonder how long this sorrow is gona last. I wonder. I still do not understand why you just dont want to let me go. Hate my life, no, I dont hate, I love my life, I love my mom my dad and my siblingz the most. I love everyone. I just hate me being so stupid to be in a relationship at this age. Love is stupid. Is fucking stupid. Hate being so emotional.

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